Everyday I wake up and wish it was April. Some days while drinking my coffee I find myself gazing to the clock in hopes that it says 8pm instead of 8am. I admit that I am wishing my life away. I feel like everyday is a struggle of some kind all linked to the same problem. The problem is not the kids (although they do contribute). Some days I lack the desire to play Peter Pan or make googly faces to occupy a 5 month old. I want to eat a meal all alone or better yet, with adults only. I want to go to the bathroom BY MYSELF! Don't get me wrong here, this is still the greatest job I've ever had. The problem lies with the absence of the other half of this parenting team and my best friend. I'm very proud of him and what he's doing there. I'm proud that he has the strength of mind to be away from me and the kids and know it's all going to be ok.
Recently on an everyday drive down 87 listening to a country station, I got a much needed reality check on wishing my life, or the time with my children away. It changed my perspective anyway. I still wish every second he was home with us but I need to take the time to enjoy the babies while they are still babies. These are the lyrics that changed my week.
by Trace Adkins:
"You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These Are Some Good Times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this"
Scene: Tuesday Night
2 weeks ago
Girl, we are ALL seriously in the same boat lately!(this post http://buoniconti97.blogspot.com/2009/10/babies-dont-keep.html) I feel horrible for wishing away all these days ( which have no added up to YEARS). My babies have all gotten so big and I've spent so much of it stressed out and CRAZY.
ReplyDeleteI may have to actually listen to that song, but it might cause a nervous breakdown!
That song and the one by Darius Rucker get me everytime!!
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